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This
ashtray means a lot to me. It’s from my dad. It’s supposed
to be his still, but unfortunately it isn’t. The day I came
home from school I heard very bad news. I was just sixteen
years old; I felt like sixteen centuries; I’m going to be
without a father. BUT LIFE GOES ON. I was daddy’s little
baby girl. So, when I heard the news I didn’t even cry. I
became the strong one that my dad would be proud of. He
smoked a lot. For sure I’m talking about cigarettes. My
first cigarette I put on this ashtray. I started to smoke
like my dad, one cigarette before lunch and a whole packet
after lunch. DADDY’S GIRL. I smoked about three years. But
one night I was so sick and tired and I felt like someone
was going to show up and tell me something interesting. I
was two minded: HEAVEN IS WAITING FOR ME or HELL IS SENDING
HIS ‘ANGELS’. None of them. I saw a man with a black suite
and whit hair but I couldn’t see his face! I was so damned
scared and I turned to the other side of the bed and I
started to pray to God. I my religion we believe you HAVE TO
BE SCARED ONLY FROM GOD. The next morning I drank a cup of
coffee and ate some biscuits and I held the cigarettes in my
hand for hours and then threw them in the garbage. Now I’m
twenty years old, it’s been a year and I’ve never bought a
cigarette. It’s true, sometimes when I’m hearing bad news,
whatever it is except political news, I smoke a cigarette
and BELIEVE IT OR NOT just half of it. When guests come to
my flat I never put this ashtray on the table. It reminds me
of my father. PAST AND FUTURE DON’T exist. But he, and his
ashtray, does.’
-Teuta
Bajrami, Academy of Arts
Taking part in the
workshops were: Fitore Klinaku, Fitore Hoxha, Vedat Musa, Virtyt
Pula, Doarsa Kica, Taulant Hetemi, Ylberina Softolli, Trim Berisha,
Furtuna Sheremeti, Arta Selimi, Arzana Alaj, Rita Saraci, Besartt
Jashari, Andina Vllahiu, Agnesa Fejzullahu, Faton Maloru, Baton
Bacaj, Armend Nushi, Melvlyd Osmani, Hateme Krasniqi, Valon Bujupi,
Mehmet Godanci, Bekim Morani, Florim Zeqiri, Valona Sahiti, Muhamet
Redenica, Luan Daci, Arif Velllliu, Valona Sahiti, Muhamed Gashi,
Teuta Bajrami.
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